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March 07, 2006 - Tuesday, 2:12 a.m.
After working on it until after midnight I found that there was no way I was going to fall asleep. It was well after 3 am before I finally drifted off. Saturday morning I was up by 8:30-9 am and back working on my paper. I had a meeting from 10-noon, and then a little shopping and off to Castle Rock for two of my nephews birthday party. They were born on the same day in March, though eight years apart. It was a nice afternoon and evening with my family. It was also my nephewís wife, Mís birthday, but she didnít come. That situation has gone badly. I now believe that a divorce is most eminent. She's still convinced that everything is his fault. However, now sheís stepped over some lines that can never be crossed back. I think itís only been a couple weeks now since M asked him to move out and he left, and infidelity on her part is already an issue. She has started down a path that she isnít going to be able to get off of, in some ways, for the rest of her life. For the life of me I do not understand what she is thinking. If she was trying to make her life better some how (in her mind), sheís ended up making it considerably worse. I canít think about it too much, it breaks my heart. I donít feel like I know her any more. Unfortunately even my nephew canít see the woman he married any more. My sister, Char, is angry with M. I canít let go of the fact that I loved her like family. I wish so much that it could be fixed, but now, wellÖ I donít know how it can ever be fixed. I wish I could think of some magic words to get through to her, but at this point there is nothing anyone can say to her that is going to mean anything. I donít think we can help to change any thing by talking. So praying for her is really all that I can do, and pray for her I will.
Kyle started his EMT training today. I am so very proud of him. He seems to be holding up well, all things considered.
ANYWAYÖ I got home about 10 pm on Saturday night. I worked on my paper for a while and at about 11:30 pm, Curt came in my room and asked me to do his income taxes for him. Iíve been putting it off for over a month. I did his taxes and then my own. Iíve already submitted them online. I should have my money in a couple weeks. Itís amazing how fast they can process them now. Again it was well after 3 am when I finally fell asleep. I was up by about 9 am on Sunday morning. Back to my paper, until it was time to go to my committee meeting in Denver. The meeting was a 1 pm, and went until after 4 pm. My sister and I (Charlotte) then stopped at the Mall for a little shopping, and then to dinner at Red Lobster. It was really a nice dinner and visit. By the time she dropped me off at home it was between 8 and 9 pm again. And BACK to the paper. By about midnight I felt completely brain dead and only had two small sections within section 2 to complete, and the final summary page. Though unable to even stand looking at the paper any more, AGAIN I found that I couldnít fall asleep. It was again up until after 3 am before I fell asleep and then I was up by 8 am this morning.
Work was very busy. I have a project that I have been working on that needs to be done and out to our subcontractorís design center as soon as possible (hopefully by the end of the day tomorrow). Gah!! I sat at my computer all day. I barely got up to do anything, nothing to eat or drink AND not even a bathroom break. Unbelievable. So after 4:30 I started to work at finishing up my paper. It only took me about Ĺ hour to 40 minutes to complete it.
When I got to school tonight I found an empty class room. HmmmmÖ I waited about 5 minutes and then wandered down the hall to the professors office. He was there and he told me there wasnít class tonight and that all I had to do was hand it in. When all was said and done my midterm was 15 pages long! I talked to him a little bit about my project for his class and then went home. I have been in a vacuum since. The completion of that assignment has lifted... well SOMETHING off my shoulders. I feel relieved and relaxedÖ howeverÖ I am still awake!! I am tired, but my mind is far too agitated to allow me to sleep.
Ramble, ramble. It was beautiful today. I wish I could have sat outside for my lunch break today. It was in the 60ís!! Can you believe it?!
Itís 2 am now. The house is quiet and I have my window open. There is a nice fresh, cool breeze coming in the window, but even outside it is quiet. It smells nice. The cat is curled up on the bed and I think Iíll watch one more episode of STNG before I go to sleep.
Sweet dreams. M.